A feeling of Emptiness

Moving to a new city can be difficult...yes I'd heard that before. Never quite did I know it would be to an extent that within weeks I would start doubting my decision to come here in the first place.

It's not been easy, not by any stretch of the imagination. Not that I was very attached to Detroit, far from it in fact. But I think, just the fact that I had spent two years there, that I was familiar with the place, made me kindda feel 'at home'. Houston is a completely different city. If at all I should be happier here. I mean it's a lot more safe as compared to Detroit, I have a job here which is not bad, I have extended family closeby should any emergency arise, heck I even have my own car here. Why then am I not happy? Well yea I've not made any friends here, hopefully that shall change with time. But then besides my roomate in Detroit, I didnt really have any great friends there as well. But it felt very different being there.

There is a strange feeling of lonliness here. It's almost as if I dont want to come back home from work. Is it because my apartment is empty? Well put in the furniture there and make it better decorated, will that really make that big a difference? Or is it just the fact that with time possibly I will start liking this city as well? That's the one thing that is keeping me going. Maybe with time I will find things to do here, people to hang out with over the weekends, some interesting activities, some fun trips somewhere.

But as of now, it's still a very empty feeling, there is something lacking, and I'm not quite sure what...that's the most frustrating part, not knowing what you are missing